While it’s true that humans are born with fear of certain things, most of our fears come from our own personal experiences. Maybe you were abused or neglected. Maybe you grew up in a volatile home, or with unpredictable parents. Perhaps you were bullied in school, or rejected by someone you love. While some withdraw into themselves and quietly carry their pain, others alter their pain into anger or hatred and lash out verbally, physically, emotionally. Neither is a healthy coping strategy, for them or the people they encounter. We’ve all witnessed someone abusing a cashier, a server, a customer service representative… While their behavior clearly has a negative effect on the poor soul they’re abusing, who has his or her own baggage to deal with, their anger and hostility also has a negative physical, emotional and spiritual effect on them. So, how do you love as though you’ve never been hurt, have joy when you’ve experienced so much pain? Owning the hurt and accepting it as a part of you is the first step. Two books come to mind:
Reconciliation: Healing the Inner Child by Thích Nhất Hạnh and The Tao of Fully Feeling: Harvesting Forgiveness out of Blame by Pete Walker.
Reconciliation: Healing the Inner Child, as described by the publisher, “Based on Dharma talks by Zen Master Thích Nhất Hạnh and insights from participants in retreats for healing the inner child, this book is an exciting contribution to the growing trend of using Buddhist practices to encourage mental health and wellness. Reconciliation focuses on the theme of mindful awareness of our emotions and healing our relationships, as well as meditations and exercises to acknowledge and transform the hurt that many of us experienced as children. The book shows how anger, sadness, and fear can become joy and tranquility by learning to breathe with, explore, meditate, and speak about our strong emotions. Reconciliation offers specific practices designed to bring healing and release for people suffering from childhood trauma. The book is written for a wide audience and accessible to people of all backgrounds and spiritual traditions.”
The Tao of Fully Feeling: Harvesting Forgiveness out of Blame, as described by the author himself:
“This book is a handbook for increasing your emotional intelligence. Moreover, if you are a survivor of a dysfunctional family, it is a guide for repairing the damage done to your emotional nature in childhood. As such it is actually a sequel to my later book: Complex PTSD from Surviving To Thriving. The Tao of Fully Feeling focuses primarily on the emotional healing level of trauma recovery. It is a safe handbook for grieving losses of childhood. Whether or not you are a childhood trauma survivor, this book is a guide to emotional health. The degree of our mental health is often reflected in the degree to which we love and respect ourselves and others in a myriad of different feeling states. Real self-esteem and real intimacy with others depends on the ability to lovingly be there for oneself and others, whether one’s feeling experience is pleasant or unpleasant. Those who can only be there for themselves or another during the “good” times show no constancy, inspire little trust, and are only fair weather friends to themselves and others. Without access to our dysphoric feelings, we are deprived of the most fundamental part of our ability to notice when something is unfair, abusive, or neglectful. Those who cannot feel their sadness often do not know when they are being unfairly excluded, and those who cannot feel their normal angry or fearful responses to abuse, are often in danger of putting up with it without protest. Repressing our emotions creates anxiety and stress, and stress, like most of our emotions is often treated like some unwanted waste that must be removed. Until all of the emotions are accepted indiscriminately (and acceptance does not imply license to dump emotions irresponsibly or abusively), there can be no wholeness, no real sense of well being, and no solid sense of self esteem. Thus, while it may be fairly easy to like oneself when feelings of love, happiness or serenity are present, deeper psychological health is seen only in the individual who can maintain a posture of self-compassion and self-respect in the times of emotional hurt that accompany life’s inevitable losses, disappointments and unforeseen difficulties. Finally this book explores the nature and limits of real forgiveness – identifying behaviors and people who cannot authentically be forgiven.”
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